you know when you were little and your parents would tuck you in at night, and read you a bed time story and your mother would softly sing the lullaby she wrote just for you?
-well i do. and i miss those days.
thats when i felt the safest i’ve every been. it’s like those lullaby’s gave you a peace of mind, and it was okay to shut your eyes. thinking the words created this wall around you so the monsters under your bed couldn’t get you because your mom’s power if more greater.
and then years go by and one night you decide to go to bed without your mom tucking you in. but just so you know that night your mom comes into your room when your asleep and checks on you. wondering why do they grow up so fast? what happened? and they turn off you light and pull the covers tighter around you and while doing all this they still hum your lullaby. how do i know they still do this? because i watched my mom with my little sister. and she told me she did the exact same thing with me.
then she stops, knowing sooner or later your going to catch on to what she’s doing. but secretly you wish she would still do it, because the monsters now come back and get you.
and these monsters do not only come in nightmare form they come in any which way they can. but well save that for another blog post.
do you wish you could go back like i do?
its like in someway it feels like a right of passage, getting to finally go to bed without your parents guidance.
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the other night my parents were talking about how when i was little i would get scared on the most randomest occasions and go and crawl into bed with them. you see this was way before my parents finally got a king size that always had a queen. so i would try my hardest to be on and edge but soon i figured it was easy to crawl in between but soon that was hard to. so being the little kid i am. i would carry my pillow into their room and lay down at the foot of the bed rolled up like a dog.
oh my little night adventures.
goodnight loves.
-C.C.